We know Emily never married but we do have access to some of her old letters so we know she corresponded for sever years with one man. Who can tell what was really going on in her head or heart. Her poems are a small window into her thoughts so that enplanes why they change back and forth so much. In one she is bemoaning the fate of married women then she is sighing over wild nights.
Lets take a look at the whole thing its a short one.
Wild nights - Wild nights!
Were I with thee
Wild nights should be
Our luxury!
Futile - the winds -
To a Heart in port -
Done with the Compass -
Done with the Chart!
Rowing in Eden -
Ah - the Sea!
Might I but moor - tonight -
In thee!
Oh what eloquence it just makes me so happy. That is one of the wonderful freeing things about poetry and music you can feel free to express your feelings as they come to you without worrying about how they would be taken when spoken. 'Rowing in Eden' a safe paradise, no more need for charts or compasses she has found her port at last. She is home. But only on the paper. In her room. At night when no one can possibly see or hear her shocking thoughts.